In the search for simplicity - to confuse yourself finally. In the hope of gaining firm support in the rigid structure of the social system - drown in the formless confusion of lies. How so? Is it possible to such an extent that the way of adaptation is absurd?

Yes, this is the natural fate of someone who hoped that he would become a normal, ordinary, even to some extent an important citizen, if he gave his will to the apparatus of totalitarianism. The way for him will decide what to do. He will do it. It will be necessary to finish with the professor and his wife - well, he will go for it, too late to retreat.

And then it turns out that there is another normality, in the light of which the former is abnormal. That neither in natural impulses, nor in imposed movements, there is unambiguity: it is not easy to judge them and, again, to align with the normality scale is not possible.

It turns out that his pursuit of accepting and recognizing his right to be considered worthy, his conformism, his desire to please the system, deceived him, did not make him like everyone else, either recognized or beloved - only a criminal, only more unhappy, confused, doomed to otherness, as well as to the torture of conscience, a man.